august 24th
my sociology teacher seems dogmatic
i dont know if i want to take a more challenging class like feminist theory
im glad i got to swim tonight
im thankful my drum rack sold for 200 dollars
august 26th
i want to get a planner
someone from europe found my blog and commented enthusiastically
theyre abolitionist vegan
today we had great food: blueberry pie corn on the cob and chickpea broccoli casserole
i learned that walt whitman put an image of himself on the title page of leaves of grass instead of his name
august 27th
jessica made cupcakes today
and i listened to john cage
august 29th
its saturday
i woke up and it feels like fall
when i think about fall i remember being with my friends at football games
august 30th
it just rained and i think its sprinkling
jessicas gone with alyssa and doug
i read 140 pages of dreams of my father by barack obama
august 31st
it is one of my dreams to have a flourishing blog
i have the most stress when i am successful at improving my life
today i bought a pair of headphones and chaw
im thankful that i was able to get a free planner from the dorms
victor emailed me saying were all learning how to ride the waves
september 1st
i like the appearance of my blog when i have pictures in the posts
september 7th
today i posted on my blog about listening to food cook
i feel good about my blog
i changed the formatting to all lowercase
im glad i have these cds from michael with these emo songs
im glad to be alive
september 9th
i shouldnt check my email so often
09/09/09 is the date today
its pretty interesting but i didnt tell very many people
september 10th
i shouldnt keep checking my email
i shouldnt keep thinking about jessica all day
september 12th
i cried for 2 hours this morning because of autumn and life
i rode my bike to campus
the sun was warmer than expected because it looked like fall outside
i rode by trees that are turning color
i sat by a pond and read ee cummings from selected poems
i wrote on a paper what i want to do is pay attention to what i am doing and enjoy what i am doing
i returned a book to the library
then i came to the mary dow reading room which is where i am now
if i want to be a simple beautiful person i can be
september 13th
im happy to exist on earth
september 14th
i feel so much
i bike to the library
i cant contain myself in the computer lab
i wanted to hug a million people
i bought a container of juice and left it outside of jennifers dorm because she is sick
i knocked and left
i went to the library to read keats for 15 minutes and went home
my dad called me
he is tarping a truck tonight before he goes home at 10pm
i told my dad to enjoy tarping and he laughed
today is monday
we are only alive for a little while
september 16th
one of walt whitmans themes was the open road
september 17th
one thing ive been feeling a lot lately is nostalgia and sadness for beautoful things and times
it seems out of hand
when i think of fall i am sad
i want to have a happier experience of life
i think it is beautiful to be young and in love with life
i want to listen to a lot of music and be with my friends
i feel chest pain when i think about having a better life
september 19th
we cleaned up the highway today and ate vegan pizza
i feel attracted to jessica
it feels like fall outside
i had a great supper at my moms house
september 20th
im chewing on mixed nuts
i like to read poetry before bed instead of prose
i moved a bed into my bedroom today
we harvested potatos and carrots from our garden at my dads house and two sunflowers
i dont want to live a busy life
september 23rd
yesterday was the first day of fall
i want to be more calm
its warm in here
the second day of fall
i have a lot of homework not that i have been really doing it
september 27th
i watched prozac nation with jessica
before 2008 i think i was primarily a happy person
i was usually in a good mood
september 28th
i read 60 pages of shakespeare
today i have a lot of chest pain
my language is being affected by shakespeare
today feels better than the weekend
october 2nd
there is light rain outside
i feel anxiety when i make a list of things to do and then do them
i feel anxiety when i set a 15 minute block to read and then read
meditation makes it worse
poetry helps a little
october 3rd
im at my moms house
today i read 80 pages of pride and prejudice
i dont want to concern myself with whether success is possible
i will act like it is possible
there is an amazing sunset outside
light orange/yellow and then very light blue in the sky
some dark grays along with white in the clouds
at the same time it is sprinling
in the east there is a rainbow behind me
now i am positioned towards a west facing window to see the sunset
october 7th
it is 11.05pm
i want to go to sleep
i felt bad for dominating the conversation with my friends tonight
our conversation about skepticism and moral nihilism
it is hard for me to relax
we have flies in our apartment now
i looked at a picture of the atlantic ocean and i missed the summer
when i think about my friends and jessica i dont know why i try hard to succeed at other things
